變像的維那斯

Being alone seems to me is the better way to live.  Yes, I can anything which I want to do withour others' company. I have been always making appoint with friends since I studied abroad. Feeling alone is becoming the most terror thing by driving me nuts. Let me became a person who wouldn't go out without friends. Situation was become more and more serious, and made me always down. Of coures, I can understand that different personality was had by each friend, but it's real quite difficult and tire to suit everyone's thought. Although I real hate that. 

Many people may said to me ：your life is boring without friends. Human can't be live alone in the workd.

Actually, I believe that human can't be live alonw in the world, but sometime have to, even if reluct to do.
I'm not starightforward.I think too much to sleep well at night. But … I don't know why ?
Changing one's personality isn't easy for me. Who can tell me what can I do ?

ps：Although I usually don't follow suggestions was gave by others. HA !